Nothing like myspace to make you fee like SHIT

So since I'm a twit who never goes out and lets my fear rule me, I am constantly wandering through sites like myspace and reading about people who do things I never will. Well the other day I found the profile of someone I used to know and messaged him. I also told another friend of mine who has moved away but used to be friends with him that I found him. Well he didn't respond to me but he did write back to my other friend and boy did he not have flattering things to say about me. Something to the effect of "wow I can't believe he is out in cyber-space, baby steps I guess" and "is he still living with his mother?" Could anything put my life in such accurate and unflattering light? I don't think so.

Since hearing that I feel even more trapped that usual. If I don't get a fucking job soon and move the fuck out of this house I'm gonna use my last bit of credit to buy a HUGE fucking gun so when I blow my head off there is nothing left above the neck. Maybe that way, there be no way to remember this shitty life in the afterlife!