blind

so i go on and on about how emo'd out about soome guy I've never met I am. I'm sure you guys have had your fill with that. Well I finally met him and all i can say is I'm underwhelmed. I think see that what my friends told me is really the case. You can't really meet people online when you haven't really been involved offline. I'm not sure why I can't seem to ever like these guys I meet in person. It's as if there is something about myself I can't see that prevents me from getting involved with anyone. I was really sort of upset aboout kind of fucking up the initial meeting with that guy. I spun this whole fantasy in my head about what could have been. The joys of an overeager imagination. So I finally meet this guy and see that I was all eager over pretty much nothing and the pall of depression is gone as if it never was. The fact that it can fade so quickly is a little bit scary. I guess I should just be happy it's gone and not think about why.