Chemical roller coaster.

Okay so I'm seriously starting to think I might be totally bi-polar. Two days ago I was a nutty suicidal maniac, and tonight I'm riding a high of positive enery...WTF!

I r confused...

Quote of the day!!

I'd offer to find a crowbar so you could pry your head out of your ass, but it wouldn't help; you still wouldn't have a fucking clue. - Hyarth

Nothing like myspace to make you fee like SHIT

So since I'm a twit who never goes out and lets my fear rule me, I am constantly wandering through sites like myspace and reading about people who do things I never will. Well the other day I found the profile of someone I used to know and messaged him. I also told another friend of mine who has moved away but used to be friends with him that I found him. Well he didn't respond to me but he did write back to my other friend and boy did he not have flattering things to say about me. Something to the effect of "wow I can't believe he is out in cyber-space, baby steps I guess" and "is he still living with his mother?" Could anything put my life in such accurate and unflattering light? I don't think so.

Since hearing that I feel even more trapped that usual. If I don't get a fucking job soon and move the fuck out of this house I'm gonna use my last bit of credit to buy a HUGE fucking gun so when I blow my head off there is nothing left above the neck. Maybe that way, there be no way to remember this shitty life in the afterlife!

This one's for you Fairy gurl~

Night Out

Welcome to fairy land!!

Bang Bang Bang

Snake!!!!!!

All of a sudden my mother has a million problems with me and it just happens to coincide with her spending a ton of time with her ex-husband, aka my dad. That mother fucker does nothing but cause trouble and them smiles to your face and expects you to love him. Nothing better could happen than him getting wiped off the face of this planet!

Thinking of you ladies!!

daily dose of crass humor

Awww, poor Snuggle!!!

Tupperware

I wonder if it comes with pink lids?

And ocean of regret

We all have our special gifts. Some of us have good ones, some of us have bad ones. I happen to fall into the latter category. My "special gift" is making rash snap decisions in the heat of the moment which I inevitably regret.

When I turn to look into my past there is the wreckage of past friendships and squandered opportunity as far as the eye can see. The image is so horrifying and appalling that I seldom turn to look at it. Yet even my efforts to avoid that sad landscape fail from time to time. My regrets can take me unawares like the blast of heat from an oven door in a cold kitchen. They take hold of me and throw me into a pit of black despair that makes the gorge rise in my throat.

I have a feeling that one of these days I'm not going to snap back out of where these moods takes me. I wonder if I will even care.

On and On

I didn't mean it and yet I cheated on you my love
You my love, my heart is beating
Are you leaving me alone, on my own

And then the tears hit my eyes
I miss you right by my side
I'm waiting for you, waiting for you
Forgive me just one of my lies
Release me from one alibi
I gotta have you, I gotta have you

On and on, your voice is calling
On and on inside my mind
Don't you know I can't let go
Never never cause my love goes
On and on
Your voice is calling
On and on inside my mind
Don't you know I can't let go
Never never cause my love goes on

I didn't mean it and yet I cheated on you my love
You my love, my heart is beating
Are you leaving me alone, on my own

And then the tears hit my eyes
I miss you right by my side
I'm waiting for you, waiting for you
Forgive me just one of my lies
Release me from one alibi
I gotta have you, I gotta have you

pikchas~~

Does it get anymore glamorous than this?

Or cuter than this?


I don't chink so~~

How to kill a fairy~~

出逢った頃のように

Deatta Koro no You ni -- Every Little Thing

My love is forever
Just like the day I met you
Even if the season changes
It will never fade away

Romance manuals and fortune telling
I gave up after a while
Little by little, I began to be impatient
The changing shapes of everyone around me
I made a note in my diary of the day we'll meet
Somehow it's sort of strange
That I could be more obsessed than before
Maybe it's the spell of summer love
My love is forever
Just like the day I met you
I want to be this way always
Treasure the excitement
In your clear blue eyes
My heart is throbbing
Even if the season changes
It will never fade away

I wonder how long I talked on the phone
It wasn't enough
I wonder what I should wear for our date tomorrow
It's strange how much I'm worrying about it
No matter when, I'll be close by
Looking after you
Like a white wave
It'll be a wonderful feeling
The more we meet I'll embrace
My feelings and happiness
And I believe you'll be here
Next year, too

My love is forever
Just like the day I met you
I want to be this way always
Treasure the excitement
In your clear blue eyes
My heart is throbbing
Even if the season changes
It will never fade away